Help! I am not me!
So for the last couple of days I have felt so down, so depressed and there is no particular reason why. Oh, sure, I have all the usual troubles and situations that most people, finances, friends that need help that I can't fix things for them, kids driving me nuts (adult kids), etc. but nothing that should make me feel like this!! The only thing I can figure is that I'm experiencing something that they call "Weight Loss Surgery Puberty". Apparently most of the hormones in your body reside in the fat cells and when you lose weight fairly rapidly you experience a sudden influx of these hormones in your bloodstream. I sure hope this is what is going on with me because I don't like feeling this way. Even as I sit here writing this I just feel like crying and I have been doing just that for the last hour or so. Yuck! I want to be me! I am usually a fairly positive, upbeat person but not today!
I am stalled again! I wonder if this is going to be a pattern? If I could just stop myself from getting on the scale every day then I probably wouldn't even notice but like last week I have stayed at 198 -198 -198! Before it was 202 then a 4 pound drop. I hope the 4 pound drop part happens again. I think we kind of get spoiled after wls. The pounds come off pretty fast in the beginning and then when it slows it is hard to deal with. It makes me want to kick myself a little because from the beginning I have asked God not to let me lose too rapidly because at my age the skin is not going to tighten up like it did in my 20's and 30's. I tell myself that if I lose it slower it won't be so bad, lol! Then when God gives me the desire of my heart, here I go complaining!